Held in His Arms!

This week has so far been everything but what I expected.
The client I was going to see and who had been very challenging ended up coding and being recusitated by Ambulance Attendents. He was on Life Support in ICU they unhooked him Yesterday and he died yesterday afternoon. Hearing it was hard. The next message then on My Machine was of a co worker who's Daughter was diagnosed with a Brain Tumour that they say is inoperable. She is only 7 and her name is Lauren. I heard it and nearly fell over. I could only think How hard that would be if it were my Lauryn.
It really has been a time of feeling helpless. The good part in it all was I could share with Jon and We could reflect and Pray together. I really felt Gods Arms there to hold us. We also cried out on behalf of this Young girl and I could picture Gods Love around this child and her family.

When My Job gets hard and things seem so unfair. I really know how important it is to Go to God and get up into His Arms! I find strength there to keep going and be able to see more patients each with there own needs. If It wasn't for God. I do Not think I could do this Job!

Thank You All for Your Prayers this week!

Asking for Wisdom

This week at work I have a rather large challenge. I am dealing with a case we call a code 33.
The client is in severe depression/alcoholism/ Agression/ a history of Cult abuse.
It is so easy to be judgemental and just give up on the guy. I feel compelled to do more than that.
I remember Sid talking about speaking the Opposite about what You see or what others say (If it is negative). In doing so I have been the only one asked for to come back and see this gentleman. I always need to go with a PSW. (for physical safety).

It is hard because I see the Physical. As do the other staff who have seen this man. However I know God sees the deepest part of this mans Sorrow , Grief, Guilt and whatever else he is struggling with.

He will refuse An Ambulance or going to the Hospital/Clinic. Even when is despirate need. He will lay in bed and soil himself to the point I have to glove, gown and mask before attending to Him. He and his girl friend are often found drunk and uncooperative and have been verbally and physically abusive to other staff. Then sometimes they are sweetest people (despirate for kind words).
It has gotten so bad over the last few months that Mental health and Rehab need to assess him for his ability to be a deadly threat to himself.
My heart aches to see Him Restored starting in His heart.
I know these types of cases are out there and it is easy to make fast judgement.

I'm Praying for Gods Wisdom. I look to the Promise of James 1:5 were it says: " If any of you lacks wisdom (thats me!) , he should ask God who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him."

I know we need Wisdom for our Kids our Marriages and so much more.

Even though I am late into this reformation 21 day thingy....I will resolve to daily make a plan to continually come to God for Wisdom. I know my patient is not the only place I need to find"His Strength in My Weakness."

Our new Puppy "Rollie" is certainly a challenge in getting used to having her and training her.
Puppy classes are coming in April (much needed!)(for training me as well!)

I Love Speaking Out (Typing Out) Gods Promises. He is true to His Promises and that is such a great assurance!

God Bless Your Week!
Tamar

Reflection

Today I am starting a new Blog.

I want to reflect on the things God is doing in my life.
I want to share the stories of His Beautiful Grace!

This last year has been a time of many questions and continues to bring me again and again to the conclusion that I am in such Good Hands!

Even though I have felt confused and upset and felt like running. God has brought supernatural Peace and reasurance just at the right time!

I truely want to be in pursuit of Him and His revalations as He chooses to reveal them.

I want to understand More of His heart. I want to see and tell of the wonderfull things He is doing and will do in this New Season.

I am so Thankful for Wonderful friends who speak out What they are hearing from God and Do it Boldly!

Tamar